Two of my best friends celebrate their birthday today:

Helene her 31st!

Janne her 32nd, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

And I have to admit, one extra large HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the best man I have ever met; Bob! He is 51 today! Gotta love him, gorgeous lovely being!

That's all right now, as it is 1.30 at night.

Monsoon

Over, is it?

Christmas is over, and it’s a bit sad. It’s like I said when we just finished eating our divine dinner on Christmas Eve; “Oh no, it’s over. Now we have to wait another year to eat this. It’s over way too fast. Can’t we sit down once more?” But perhaps that’s just the “food-o-holic” in me talking? I love food. And sweets. And crisps. And ice-cream, let’s not forget ice-cream. Yup, that’s my number one love, within the eating department. Especially my cousin’s ice-cream. To fecking die for, I am not joking you! Wish I could send samples around the world. As the kids said in Ireland: “Yummy big bummy” *lol*

Vegar is beeping me on Msn, hold on.

1, 5 hours later, and it’s now 23.30. Tomorrow we are all going to meet at Helene’s for some food and talking. The girls and some of the men too. I hope it’ll be nice. I am sure it will. I saw both Helene and Janne for the first time over Christmas today. Lovely to see them both. Helene who is newly engaged and all… I am so happy for her. I remember the first year we shared the flat. We spent many a night “sobbing”, but we did so in a humorous way. We so wanted someone special in our lives, and felt that we had so much to give, and yet no one to give it too. Hehe… “For the times they are a-changing…”

I have ordered some new stuff for my computer. (I looove upgrading, and I wish I could spend a lot more on it.) I bought memory, 1024Mb, and a Windows XP OS (operating system), with an almost free upgrade to Vista. Rumour has it that Vista is being released around spring. It’ll be interesting to see what new features have been put in. Also to see if the security level has improved, to prevent all the bad guys entering. I don’t know what I’d do without Lavasoft’s ad-aware. It sure removes a whole lot of stuff like spy ware, which slows down the computer. I remember when XP came. It was a revolution! The Millennium was the crappiest version ever. It was a shame, it really was. God, I am such a geek sometimes! Hihi!!

Well, now its midnight and I have other plans ;-)

Indeed, history is nothing more than a tableau of crimes and misfortunes.
- Voltaire

So take care, be a bit naughty, but be good too!

Love and hugs Monsoon

Gosh I wish “someone” was here now. I am sure we’d have a good time.

Hello

Hi! Just a quickie. I am a bit tired from all the socializing in the past three days. I've had a great time! Fantastic dinners, terrific company in family and friends. Though, I did think... No forget it. I'll keep that one to myself.

But, before I go I want to remember those affected, in any way, by the tsunami two years ago. You are in our thoughts. I do know that horror happens every day many many places around the world, and those are no less of a tragedy. But somehow this tragedy struck me in a special way. Probably many reasons for that.

Now I am going, and I need something relaxing. I kinda know just the thing.

I hope all of you had a fabulous celebration in all your different ways.

Hugs!

Monsoon

Bob!!!!!

MERRY
CHRISTMAS
TO ALL
MY FRIENDS
OUT THERE!

You are all very special to me, so take
care of yourself and those around you!

Lots of Christmassy love from Monsoon

And one special greeting to someone very special...

Christmas gone bad, for someone apparently

Do you think there is a slight possibility that these families overdid it on the lights? I am sure the amount of electricity used here could give heat to a whole village. Is there actually a house in the first picture!?

TACKY TACKY TACKY!!! Yuuuk!


I am sure Jesus would appreciate the fact that he now comes in an inflatable version as well.


Yes, Santa is an eager golfer, I am sure of it!

What's up duuude? Oh, it's only Santa out on his Harley is it? Give me an effen break!


Merry ugly X-mas to you too, eh!?! Amazing what people are willing to buy and use as decorations. Blows me away!!

If you too want to have a good laugh, followed by a puking session, search the net with these keywords: -christmas decorations- and see what horror can be found...

I am now going to my parents, because in Norway it is the night before the night, and we are going to watch this silly old film called "grevinnen og hovmesteren". (short film based on a British play called "Dinner for one") My dad laughs his head off every year, and I laugh at him.

Monsoon ;-)

Two days to go

Christmas is all around… Soon. I don’t really feel all the Christmassy feelings I wish I had, but then; hopefully it will all come to me on the 24th, watching Disney Christmas cartoons and the Czech Cinderella. Yes, like I said before, I do need the childhood stuff to really feel it.
It is always also a time for considering what I have and how to get what I want in my life. In addition a time to think about those who aren’t happy around this time. Many reasons can contribute to that. To be honest I am somewhat “there” myself. Not in the strongest sense, but still… don’t like it though. I think many people experience this. Like you feel every Christmas and New Year is the beginning of something new, with room for hopes, dreams and resolutions to change what we don’t like about our lives.
Boy do I have many aspects I’d die to change. All in due time, that’s all I will say.

Irene came home yesterday, as she is celebrating Christmas with her parents. Her husband is joining her later. She called to me, and we had a fabulous night with chatting and laughs. It was so nice to see her. Tonight Agnete is coming, and I can’t wait to see her. She lives in Oslo, so like so many of my friends; I don’t get to see her that often. I wish more of them lived closer to me. Especially since my best Eva is also moving next year. However; Helene for instance, couldn’t really move here. Being an opera singer kinda requires living somewhere with an opera.

I just have to address one thing that annoys the heck out of me with commercials on TV. I am over-sick by the line every bloody day cream, shampoo, and mascara etc. use. Namely this: “Because you’re worth it” Do they think we’re all gonna “wake up” and run out of the house claiming out rights and screaming – “but I am worth it!!” Do they think they can enhance self confidence this way, or even self worth? No, you don’t! Just because Penelope Cruz says she, and I, are worth it, I don’t believe so. Argh! I don’t know why, but I am just fed up with the whole thing. So shut up!! I won’t ever buy those things, just to spite you. But then that sort of “stubbornness” is typical of me. Like this so-called trend started seemingly by our Crown Princess Mette-Marit. She tied her scarf in a special way, and soon every person of the female gender, wore their scarves like that, be it winter or accessorize scarves. So then, of course I would SO NOT wear mine like that. Why should I have any desire to be just like everybody else? I am after all not everybody else, I am me. Nothing more, but I think it’s enough. *lol*

Monsoon

Bob - The season makes me think even more about him. Bah!

Ugly decorations

Last week mum and I went shopping at a toy store called extra toys which lies beside IKEA. After finishing the gift shopping we therefore went into IKEA as well. You know, to see if they had any nice Christmassy things. They did have some, but when I caught a glimpse of one of the things I lost the ability to move, that is how painfully ugly it was. I swear my eyes started to sting and tears were running… Christmas isn’t supposed to be glittery in a vulgar way, but let me know what you think. Unfortunately the picture makes it look better than I reality. However, without further ado, let me introduce you to the ugliest tree decorations ever to face the earth:

Chills… Stina, whom I visited today, had gotten one of these for her birthday ion November, just for fun. Her friend had seen it at IKEA and just had to buy them, to see Stina’s reaction. *lol* Funny! I bet she was thrilled!!

I had a fantastic time with Stina today. She kissed me like there was no tomorrow when I came, and she said it was sooo lovely to see me. Well; likewise I say. She is such a fantastic person, and we have a lot of things in common. We share a passion for music and history, and we like to discuss current affairs. I am extremely appreciative of the fact that Stina came into my life, almost two years ago. Thanks to Sonans. (The school I went to)

This is her.

I am looking forward to the 24^th. Presents and wonderful delightful food. We eat “pinnekjøtt” prepared in a special family traditional way, which began many decades ago. I think it was my great great great grandmother who started it. Usually people only cook/boil the lamb ribs, but in our family we cook them in the oven for nearly 3 hours instead. It gives the meat a very purple colour, and it gets so tender it almost falls off the bones. I don’t even like boiled “pinnekjøtt”, so that proves that our way is quite different tasting. *mouth getting all slobbery and watery merely thinking of it* Wonder what Bob eats for Christmas? Hmm…

And let’s not forget; the Czech film about Cinderella, called “Tri orisky pro Popelku”. Every year it airs, I have to see it. To me; there just won’t be Christmas without it. Childish perhaps, but frankly who gives a shite!? I know I don’t! Here’s a picture of her and her prince. Man is she gorgeous!! I will, somehow unwilling, admit that my eyes fill up every year as they ride off on each white horse… The saddest song ever is being played, so no wonder! *lol* I am tragic, aren’t I!?

Enough blabber!!

Monsoon

Bob…

Time off, and all is good

It is nice with some days off. That way I can indulge in my favourite thing; namely to stay up indecently late and sleep until I wake up. How wonderful that is! I never sleep very late. So I won’t sleep my holidays away. Haven’t done anything today. Really, nothing. Let’s review: Got up, turned on computer wearing nothing. (I don’t know what it is; I simply must do that first thing…) Talked for 3 hours on the phone. First my good friend Mette phoned me. She lives in Oslo, and it was fabulous, as ever, to talk to her. She lives with her girlfriend Malene. I’ve known Mette since 2001. We met through a gay “meeting place” on the net called radiator. Then Beate called too, which resulted in another 1, 5 hours on the phone. After that I have groomed Shira, my cat, watched TV, eaten dinner, listened to music, chatted with Eva, talked to mum on the phone, and read my beloved history magazine. That’s it. How evolving! But it’s great with some days like that once in a while. Mindless “non-brainy” days. Lovely! *lol* At least one can find one truth about me: I am very able to relax, big time! An important and needed quality.

Oh yum… I am listening to a very good Waters song, called running shoes. Very sexy indeed… there’s this very hot moaning in it. Don’t know why, but boy that is kinda… well… ya know! *lol* I’ll shut my hole now, so I don’t end up like that “party girl” on Saturday. God forbid!

Two nights ago I had a nightmare. It was terrible, and when I woke up I had to pee. But I was, for the first time in my life, scared by a dream, and so I had to lie there and breathe and calm down before daring to move. It was the atmosphere in the dream that was dreadful, and left with an eerie feeling in my whole body. The dream itself sounds really silly. I dreamt that Eminem was an axe murderer, and chased me and some other headless girl around. We even hid under the grass… yeah, like that’s possible – especially when being fat. It’s just as likely as me hiding under a duvet, and not being discovered, right… Funny! Last night however, was a whole other story. A love story to be precise. Bob and I, in sweet harmony. Aaawh…

Talked about not feeling well yesterday. Luckily I haven’t gotten worse. Quite the contrary actually. I am better. Head still feels like it’s gonna explode like very second, but fortunately that hasn’t happened yet. But that’s about it. Nothing a couple of ibuprofens can’t take away.

I am going to watch a film tonight. It’s the type that is easy on the mind. Comedy and it doesn’t require full attention and deep thoughts. Which suits me fine on a day like this. And, moreover; Colin Firth stars in it, and he is pleasing on the eye, so there! Colin plays Mr. Darcy in Bridget Jones, and in Pride and Prejudice the BBC series, amongst others. Here he is in Pride and Prejudice: (yes Elise this is for you too!!)

Well, I am gonna play worms and wait for the film which starts at 9.

Tomorrow I am heading for Stavanger to visit one of my best friends; Stina. She is at work, so I won't go before on the 2 train from here. Looking very much forward to it!!!

Monsoon :-)

*B and O and B*

EUROPEAN CHAMPIONS!!

Champions and ill, possibly...

If I put pictures into the post the text gets all crammed and difficult to read, hence yesterdays post. So that is why I have posted the happy pictures of the Norwegian team in the post above...

WE WON!! 27-24. Tears in my eyes, sore throat from all the screaming, as the match was insanely thrilling. Eva and I jumped up and down, couldn’t sit still in the end. Russia is a very very good team, and they followed us like 1 and 2 goals behind throughout the whole match. When Norway’s captain, Gro was injured after only 6, 5 minutes today I said; nooooo! But, the other girls stepped up, took responsibility and won the whole bleedin thing!


Party last night was all right, for a while. But then some girl that I don’t know came too. Well I know her by name and appearance, but not as a person. By God was she vulgar. It can be fun for two seconds, but then it gets too old, if you know what I mean. One of the things she told us was that a man from my place had said to her once that if she was a stamp he would have licked her. Ha-ha, not! It was perhaps fun when I was 11 or 12. She didn’t stop there, and it seemed like she had one topic and that was sex in a vulgar way. I am all for talking about sex, but only with people whom I trust, and not in that way. “Have you ever heard of the concept discretion?” I was the only one not drinking, but that is no problem to me. I have no trouble talking and laughing without alcohol. When I was a young teen and we had been out, people always thought I had been totally wasted. And I who never drank one drop of alcohol before I was 18. Tji hi! I like being sober, as I am “just right” then. I can relax, joke, talk, be flirtatious and so on without having to be drunk. I know so many people who can’t even meet a man/girl, go to a party, and go out and so on, without being under the influence. How sad is that? I think it is horrible! Most of them have also only ever had sex in a drunken state. It must be really hard to be that stiff, inhibited, and unable to loosen up and be yourself.

I am not feeling so well today, think I might be brewing on something. Oh no, not just before Christmas. Darn! And I never get ill, so I jut keep telling myself; I won’t get ill, I won’t get ill”, and I hope that that will help. *positive thinking eh?* So because of that excruciating headache, boiling cheeks/head, pain in every muscle in the body (yes, I do have muscles despite being fat. *lol*) and not to mention heartache, I will stop here. Happy though, as we won the final. In addition I hereby order myself to go to bed early(ish..)

Snap, crackle and pop!

Monsoon

Bob ;-)

Yesss!!!!

JAAAAYSIIIIS! We're in the final!!! Oh my God what a match! I swear, my pulse was beating into the millions!! Soooo exciting, and the teams followed each other almost to the end. Then in the last two minutes Norway showed who was boss, and won 28-24!!

So fucking happy now, and I have screamed so much that my voice is hoarse... Tjhi!!

NORWAY, woo hoo! Tomorrow Russia awaits in the final.

Woo hoo!

My good friend Karin came with this beautiful flower for me when she heard I had gotten A. Such a nice gesture!

Saturday, and I am waiting for the semi finales in the Euro Championship. Norway is playing France, and that’s gonna be a very difficult match. I have belief in the Norwegian team, as they are very good. One of the most important players was injured in their first match in the championship. Her name is Katja Nyberg, and she is girlfriends with our captain, whose name is Gro Hammerseng. They are both fantabulous handball players! I think it is so cool to have a couple on the team, especially as that means they are lesbian!! Great shout-out for the gay community I think. Here they are; Gro to the left, and then Katja.

I am going to Hege today, as it is her birthday. She’s gonna have a smallish party. I am glad the match starts and ends in time for me to see it all before having to go the party. Maybe I sound mad in head, but I would have chosen the match first, and then I would have gone to the party afterwards. It is not that often there’s a Euro championship… Only every second year actually. Hope the party will turn out to be good!

I have finally put up the rest of the Christmas decorations, and to try to get some of that jolly feeling into my body I played Christmas songs while doing it. It helped, until I realized most of the songs were sooo sad sounding. And then I also remembered that yesterday was the day my ex and I started to live together. Yuk! But that took a turn in a different direction last year all right. Here I am single, and she is busy planning her wedding with her new girl Vanja. “All” just because I was so fucking stupid to fall in love with a married man. Oh holy crap! (Of course we had other problems, prior, but me liking him was the triggering factor) But I guess it was all good in the end. When I was able to fall so hard and so deep both emotionally and physically for someone else, it kind of said a few things about the relationship I was in. It probably wasn’t right after all. I know that now…

I just have to nag about that A again, just a little bit. When I got it the first person I felt like telling was Bob. Huge surprise! As I always felt that he believed in me, and I am certain that he would have been proud of me. Well, certain was maybe a strong word; I’ll say I think so instead…

Almost done Christmas shopping too. Yea!

Monsoon - in a good mood -

BOB

School's out for now...

Last day at Uni, so now it’s Christmas Holiday. Yea! I start again on January 10th, so that’s close to one whole month of holiday. Though; I can’t stay on the lazy side at all. I have tons of pages to read in law and sociology, and social psychology too.

In the handball championship Norway is doing Ok. They’ve won their first four games, by at least 10 goals. Yesterday they played Austria, and Norway played really bad at times. But we managed to win in the end, 39-24, which was great on a bad day I guess. We “won” the last 20 minutes with 13 goals. Austria used to be one of the top teams in Europe, but unfortunately they aren’t that good anymore. One of their players, Sorina Teodorovic played in Norway at Bækkelaget for many years. I used to work-out at the same studio as her, and so it was nice to “see” her again. Tonight Norway is meeting Macedonia. Hope we win this too. Heck, let’s win the whole damn thing!

Listening to Neil Young, and I have to say that though I love his voice, it kinda kills me at the same time. It is so incredibly sore and melancholic sounding, a lot of the time. It grabs your soul, and you can’t help it. It just happens, every time, unnoticeable… It’s all good. I like it this way. I couldn’t bare, even the thought of, not truly living and being influenced by the music I listen to. Of course, from time to time, I too listen to music just to get me dancing and stuff like that. Music is medicine, and it’s like the fabulous Pete Townshend says; “Rock won’t eliminate your problems, but it will sort of let you dance all over them”. How true!

I have written so many poems lately, plus pouring my heart, soul and mind out, in all sorts of writings. It does me good, but it cures not all wounds. Hopefully time will take care of that for me.

My feet have still not hit the ground after getting my A. I am flying first class at the moment! And boy is that lovely. I talked to the teacher who had the main job to mark my exam today. (10 people have been involved in marking the exams though.) She said it was the best A they had seen in a long time, and that she only had one comment on it which was: crystal clear A. I blushed while she said this and she commented on that and added; “I guess you’ll blush even more if I say that I wish to copy this to everyone else for them to see how it should be solved?” Yes, I said, and I don’t want it copied! I don’t! I feel embarrassed! But oh so happy! I am afraid my feet won’t ever touch the ground again. No, I am kidding, but I am just so un-fucking-believably happy and fulfilled by this. I am sorry if I sound totally haughty now, I don’t mean too, I just feel like sharing how exalted and proud I am. So again; excuse me if I sound like one gigantic ego… I am not, really…

*LOL*

Well, I am off to watch some telly I am…

Tiny update: Norway won 28-13, and tomorrow awaits Hungary. Difficult match, as they are very good!

Monsoon

Long time

Wind and rain, heavy horizontal rain, as usual here. But I love it. I like weather that almost goes through your body. Really rough and fabulous weather.

Anyway. I haven’t been writing for many days. I think it is the longest gap between two blog entries, since I started a little over a year ago. Don’t know why, no I do know. I think my writing is insanely boring. I only write about what I’ve been doing and about my fucked up emotional life and so on. It’s like; why would that be interesting to anyone? God! I don’t know where I am going with this blog anymore. I think it’s gone somewhere I never planned for it to go. Should I stop writing? But then; I haven’t a clue as to what I should be writing about instead. I don’t want a political blog, only fractions of it. I don’t want it to be a complete journey of my extremely complex mind, like in the form of poems, short-stories and “blabber”. I don’t want it to be a reeling off of someone else’s words, definitions and opinions in all forms. I want it to be me. The true me. But I can’t reveal all the truth. The written language is much more powerful than the spoken. You can’t see the person, the expressions, body-language or eyes. Therefore the written word is easily misunderstood in the way that people tend to exaggerate the words, and give them other meanings than they were intended.

I remember I wrote a poem about how I waned to sleep for a long time. To me that just meant for a while; until the storm was ridden… But to most of my friends that “meant” that I wanted to die. So there you go! Perhaps it’s just meeee…? In addition; the one thing constantly on my mind I can’t talk about all the time. Most of you feel revulsion by the name Bob by now, and you might even experience puking. To be honest; he is on my mind 24-7, no doubt. In by bloodstream, floating around like the only truth I will ever find. But I can’t just go on, and on, and on about him. So to get some of the steam out, I might just end an entry with BOB… nothing more. It says it all. “My head is saying "fool, forget him". (From some lyrics…)

I sit here and look at my beautiful and sweet pussycat. So glad I have her. When I feel lonely,”talking” to her and cuddling up with her helps me. At least she is a living creature…
A social person like me isn’t made for living alone. It sucks.

Looking forward to going to school tomorrow. Then I am going to tell one of the teachers I got an A. She old me she was keeping her fingers crossed for me, so I know she will be so happy to hear about my grade. Of course it won’t be painful to tell people how I did either. Woo hoo! *lol*

I am dead tired and so I am going to bed, big time!

Monsoon

*BOB*

I AM THE HAPPIEST WOMAN RIGHT NOW.

I GOT AN A ON MY EXAM!!! (which is the best...)

There were 5 of us who got an A, out of 100 persons.

*crying in pure exalted joy*

Life is sunshine right now... Took this picture as the sun honoured us with its presence earlier today. It's been ages, as the last weeks have been nothing but rain and rain.

To add to the joy of today, there’s a rumour that THE WHO might be playing a festival in Norway next year. I will chew off my left foot for that to happen! (tad exaggerated, I admit)

Now I am waiting for my dad to come down. We're going to watch Norway versus Slovenia in the European Championship in handball for women, which starts today.

Monsoon - so proud I could die -

tiny note

Having a crappy crappy day, but one good thing: Finally an Inter match on TV, so that's what I am going to be doing now. I am going to watch Inter versus Bayern Munich. *must win this game*

Only annoying thing is that the football players all look like ants running around. Why? Well, because my old, but totally adorable, TV, is only 20". 

I have vowed not to buy a new one before this is broken. A tiny 
protest against the "use and throw away" society we live in... 

Monsoon

Words, don’t come easy to me, how can I find a way, to make you see I love you?

Words, don’t come easy to me… No, that’s truly true sometimes. That song really reminds me of being a child. It is called Words. Do you remember it? Awwwh so cute. My aunt and I sang it together in her car while out driving. Talking about “old times”; there’s this programme on TV here. It is called “golden times” and the concept is this: Three men, who all were young in the 80’s, go around the world to talk to the heroes of the 80’s. Some of whom they’ve talked to are: “Krystle” and “Fallon” in Dynasty, Sabrina, Bo Derek, The Bangles, Samantha Fox, Glenn Medeiros (sang Nothing’s gonna change my love for you) Limahl (sang the never-ending story) and of course more. I enjoy that show, because I think it is cool to meet the stars of then and see what they’re up to now.

I will, somewhat unwillingly, admit that Samantha Fox was my big idol of that time. It wasn’t her music that I liked the most about her. No, in fact I was like the guys who drooled over her two important frontal assets and the rest of her body as well. (little "pervee") I had about 300 posters of her, and they covered the walls in my HUGE room in the basement. I also had scrapbooks of her, and I still have them today. While other girls had posters of Jon Bon Jovi and other male singers whom they found sexy, I had Sam Fox. Even more unwillingly I will admit that I had both posters and pictures of her topless. (yup, that’s not deviant, nooo…) I was ardently taken with her, and watched videos of her “all day long”. Weird. I have mentioned her in my diary even, and I have written about how sexy and beautiful I thought she was. God, give me a break!! How my bisexuality could pass me by until I was 20 is way way beyond me. More importantly; how come my parents weren’t a bit startled over the amount of posters of women in my room? (It is all coming back to me now; I had pics of Catherine Oxenberg from Dynasty too… Oh God!) In denial perhaps!? *lol* No, I don’t think it was that. I had boyfriends all the time, so I don’t think anyone, me included, thought that I was anything but straight as log.

Lucikly after this periode I developed both a better taste in men/women and music! *lol*

Though I must say, right now I do feel more on the straighter side. I suppose it has to do with the fact that I have met my “dream partner”, and he is male. (oh boy is he male… sigh and a little bit of drool too…) While with Inger Marie I felt more on the gay side. So I guess it all depends… I will stress this though: I don’t need both at the same time. I am monogamous! I just had to say that because, unfortunately, many people think that bisexuals are these horn dogs that need to have sex 24-7. Also that we never can be faithful and that we need both sexes at all times. One big sexorama I suppose. That’s not true, not for me it isn’t.


Yes, yet another childhood picture of me...

I am so tired, that I think I need a little nap. So I’ll see you all.

Monsoon

B.O.B

Wuthering heights

My kitchen, living room and hall are spotless. I doubt it’s been this clean since we moved in here in May 2004. Hihi… The kitchen presses even got a good scrub, and I’ve done a thorough cleaning job all round. I was supposed to do the rest today, but somehow I never got around to it. Wonder why? I will do it Thursday after shopping for Christmas presents. My dad was kind enough to tick off in a, Clas Ohlson, catalogue what he would like. Makes it easier, as it is so hard to know what to buy. Like, he really does have everything...

The weather has been very wet the past few weeks, with very strong winds and rain. So in this nice weather I found out that going for walk sounded like a good idea. And so I did. I drove down to the sea, and walked down to the beach. The sea roared and I am glad I had a cap and scarf on. When I got down to the “top of the beach”, I actually sat down on the wet ground. It was beautiful to sit there and feel the hard strong wind on my face, and the rain almost whipping my cheeks. I feel alive at moments like that. All alone, receiving whatever the nature has to offer in its entire wrath. That is true magnificence! Have promised myself to try to do that at least once per weekend, when I have the car. I love the sea; it is so powerful and intimidating. I feel a complete awe and calmness being beside it. Took some photos, but while trying to avoid rain on my mobile/camera, the pictures didn’t turns out so good. You’ll get a picture of w hat it was like. I wish I could have taken a picture of the roaring sound, which would be cool!


Here I am trying to take a pic of myself, but virtually impossible as the rain and wind "took" me

No kids in sight here...

Due to the insane amounts of note taking at Uni I have managed to get a tendonitis in my wrist. It hurts like hell. I am very much used to it, because when I was a goalkeeper in handball I had tendonitis all the time. Still annoying though. Dad said that he has a laptop I could borrow, but I am not sure that would be better. Don’t particularly like the laptop keyboard. It is so flat somehow. I find it difficult to write. So I think I’ll just stick to the old pen and paper. The 13th of December is the last day before Christmas, and then I am off for nearly a month. Hope that will “fix” the wrist.

I think I will play some worms, and then I'll watch some TV.

Monsoon :-) - Feeling quite happy today -

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I’ve been off school today, but I had to get up early nevertheless. Drove my grandda, who will be 86 on January 30th, to the hospital for a check up on his tongue. (He had cancer). Luckily everything seemed fine, so I agree to what grandda said on the way home: “It is the best Christmas present I could get”. He gave me 400 NOK for driving him. I said that that was so not necessary. But he replied: “that is the least your services are worth”. I gave him a long hug in the hospital hall, and the nurse smiled at us. I have always been very special to grandda, because I speak my mind, and I am always myself. I never pretend, or try, to be this “picture perfect” for them, and he appreciates that so much. Also he says he likes me so much because I am honest, and if I think he behaves like an idiot, I will give out to him. Weird the things people are grateful for, eh!?

Well, back to today; when we came home to Varhaug, grandma had pancakes and some home baked cookies for us. That was my breakfast, to my grandma’s horror. This was at 12 o’clock and I hadn’t eaten. I then had to tell her that there is no immediate emergency connected to me not eating. Besides; I detest breakfast. I just can’t seem to swallow food right after getting up. If I am not insanely hungry, which I rarely am at the crack of dawn, I usually don’t eat before two hours of getting up.

I think congratulations are in order!! About a week ago my (first) cousin Ole Morten, 26 years, gave out his first examples of his gourmet ice-cream. He makes the ice-cream on his farm right here at Vigrestad, using only the finest ingredients from the farm and other places. He has been to Italy to learn the trade. He had to go back to the country where it all started you know. I come from a long line of ice-cream lovers, and boy have I tried a lot of ice-cream around the world. Nothing compares to “Iskremgården”’s one. Wow! Last weekend my brother came with four samples for me to try. While eating all I could do was moan, sigh, moan, and it sounded like I was up to something completely different. And I am telling you; for every spoon I ate I had a tiny orgasm. *lol* The flavour exploded in my mouth, it was the best I have ever tried. I don’t particularly like strawberry taste, but this one was like a taste of heaven. Fresh strawberries… One big yum! I am so proud of my first cousin. He and his wife have worked so hard to be able to do this. And not only that, the logo is made by family too. In fact my brother designed it. What you can’t see from this picture is that behind the name there is a vague air photo of the farm. Too cool!

Tomorrow is cleaning day, and by that I mean really clean!! Even move the sofas and vacuum behind them. Heavy bastards! *lol* Then I have to get out some of my Christmas decorations. I will post pictures later. I even have special curtains for the kitchen. Gotta love this season. Wish me luck because; yuk!

I do wish there could be some way I could be in charge of my own dreams at night, as it seems that my subconscious is living a life of its own. I have one dream category, and have for the past few months. Pray what ever could it be? I won’t keep you in the dark for long. The category is Bob. One would think that by now I must have dreamt every dream there is about him. But ooooh nooo… Every night something new. At this point I find this to be hysterical! Last night I dreamt that we were slowdancing, really close, and well let’s just leave it with saying; it was kinda sexy. *pulling three billion wish bones at the same time*

Monsoon ;-)