Words, don’t come easy to me, how can I find a way, to make you see I love you?

Words, don’t come easy to me… No, that’s truly true sometimes. That song really reminds me of being a child. It is called Words. Do you remember it? Awwwh so cute. My aunt and I sang it together in her car while out driving. Talking about “old times”; there’s this programme on TV here. It is called “golden times” and the concept is this: Three men, who all were young in the 80’s, go around the world to talk to the heroes of the 80’s. Some of whom they’ve talked to are: “Krystle” and “Fallon” in Dynasty, Sabrina, Bo Derek, The Bangles, Samantha Fox, Glenn Medeiros (sang Nothing’s gonna change my love for you) Limahl (sang the never-ending story) and of course more. I enjoy that show, because I think it is cool to meet the stars of then and see what they’re up to now.

I will, somewhat unwillingly, admit that Samantha Fox was my big idol of that time. It wasn’t her music that I liked the most about her. No, in fact I was like the guys who drooled over her two important frontal assets and the rest of her body as well. (little "pervee") I had about 300 posters of her, and they covered the walls in my HUGE room in the basement. I also had scrapbooks of her, and I still have them today. While other girls had posters of Jon Bon Jovi and other male singers whom they found sexy, I had Sam Fox. Even more unwillingly I will admit that I had both posters and pictures of her topless. (yup, that’s not deviant, nooo…) I was ardently taken with her, and watched videos of her “all day long”. Weird. I have mentioned her in my diary even, and I have written about how sexy and beautiful I thought she was. God, give me a break!! How my bisexuality could pass me by until I was 20 is way way beyond me. More importantly; how come my parents weren’t a bit startled over the amount of posters of women in my room? (It is all coming back to me now; I had pics of Catherine Oxenberg from Dynasty too… Oh God!) In denial perhaps!? *lol* No, I don’t think it was that. I had boyfriends all the time, so I don’t think anyone, me included, thought that I was anything but straight as log.

Lucikly after this periode I developed both a better taste in men/women and music! *lol*

Though I must say, right now I do feel more on the straighter side. I suppose it has to do with the fact that I have met my “dream partner”, and he is male. (oh boy is he male… sigh and a little bit of drool too…) While with Inger Marie I felt more on the gay side. So I guess it all depends… I will stress this though: I don’t need both at the same time. I am monogamous! I just had to say that because, unfortunately, many people think that bisexuals are these horn dogs that need to have sex 24-7. Also that we never can be faithful and that we need both sexes at all times. One big sexorama I suppose. That’s not true, not for me it isn’t.


Yes, yet another childhood picture of me...

I am so tired, that I think I need a little nap. So I’ll see you all.

Monsoon

B.O.B