I like films that make me ponder and appreciate

I watched this film called "Now and then" a few days ago. According to me it’s one of the best coming-of-age films I've seen. It is so beautifully done, with good colours and lighting. First we see scenes from the present time, then we look back at the summer of their 12th year, and then in the end, we’re back at present.

Thora Birch is one of my favourite actresses, and she radiates in this one as well. There is something about that girl, which grasps me. She moves in a very unique way, and her facial expressions are remarkable! One of a kind.

There is this scene in the film where a very old man, whom they call “Crazy Pete”, tells one of the girls something. This quote has stuck with me since I first saw the film in 1996. This is what he says: “Things will happen to you in life that you can’t stop, but that is no reason to shut out the world. There is a purpose for both good and bad…”

So, so true, it’s a pity that most of us don’t go by this “rule”… I know I have a hard time doing so, even though I try at times. Like right now I wish I could think like that, so bad. Because of Bob you know. I have incomprehensibly big problems with seeing what the purpose is with that whole matter. I guess years from now I’ll see it all so much clearer. I hope! (Though, I do not see why it has to hurt so much)

But a new chapter is about to start in my life; University. A clean sheet of possibilities, dreams and hopes. I hope it will fill up with good things soon.

A few days ago I sent my phone number to my ex Spanish teacher. He tried to call me last night, but apparently I was on the phone. He had left me an e-mail to tell he’d called. We got to talk today, and he helped me clear a few things. Very nice of him!!

I’ve cut my hair today. I think it turned out good. Haven’t really fixed it afterwards, so I’ll have to do that before judging it…

I feel old. Mostly on the inside, because I feel so different from a lot of people around me. Hard to explain. I think I’ve always felt like that, always felt a bit outside and beside it all… I have found out that that probably explains one of the reasons why I only fancy men who are 15-20 years older than I am. I feel much more related to them, and I feel “at home” with them. I can be myself; I don’t have to hold out expectations of being this hip, young, urban, trendy, cool, party-girl, which I’m not. My interests, ideas, and thoughts within me, are not like my peers’… Funny I am.

I miss him. He gave me a lot, but on the other hand; nothing…

By the way; apparently it is "International Orgasm Day" today. So in honour of this day I think we all should try to have at least one of the kind today. *laughing*
Will you do your part? I have, and will... *coughing*

I will go now...

Monsoon :-)